Thursday was our Thanksgiving celebration at work and it is always a big deal. There's loads of food and lots of people walking around, prizes being raffled, and dessert a-flowin'. This year was just so different for me. I am thinner -- 52 pounds down at the time of this post -- but not only that, I AM different now than I was last year.
I got in line like everyone else and got a plate of the Thanksgiving feast. There was turkey, ham, dressing, mash, mac & cheese, green beens, and cranberry sauce; I didn't even bother with the dessert table. I think they plates being handed out by the caterers had to have been about two pounds of food -- it was heavy. I took the plate in both hands and looked at it, and thought, "this is a lot of food to through away." I went to my desk since I was working on a couple of documents, and nibbled on half of a slice a ham, two green beans, and a couple of bites of white meat turkey breast. Stick a fork in me; I was done!
I couldn't have eaten another bite without puking my pouch out. I thought about the meal last year and remembered that I had eaten most of the plate's contents, plus dessert! Many of my co-workers passed by with plates in hand. Their plates were brimming, no, overflowing with food: turkey, dressing, ham-- all dripping with gravy. Seeing all of this excess grossed me out, completely.
I immediately got up, took up my plate and went to the break area, where I chucked my unfinished plate in the trash. There would be no more membership in the "clean plate club" for me. I am a different person now. I think differently about food, I react differently about food, and now I eat differently. If I had not had weight loss surgery, I would never have thought differently about my addiction to food. I would have continued to eat the same way, and then expect the same results.

November 21, 2010
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Faith, I am so proud of you my dear Friend. Stay strong and remember to live, love & laugh!
ReplyDeleteI love you!
ARaul